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I heard you that night,
when you whispered my name and waited for some type of response.
I was so lost in the illusion of ‘love’
that my heart wouldn’t let my voice whisper back.
We laid still that night,
when we should have opened our hearts.
This damn illusion of ‘love’ lasting forever
stopped any kind of..I love yous.. from leaving this broken heart.
I would have told her to stop
if she made the move, she never made
but not right away, I would have let our lips touch just long enough
for it to be called anything but a decent kiss
and when she would ask why
in a seductive –I don’t want to stop- kind of way
I would have told her…
it’s just another memory to think of
on the lonely highways back home
and we’ve made enough of those
so lets leave well enough alone..
Lines from Journal 2003-2006
But…He cried
I mean he really cried this time. He didn’t get out of bed for days. He literally got on his hands and knees and begged for me. He said he would change. He really means it this time; I could see it in his eyes. He even bought me flowers, made me dinner, and told me he loved me. He is really trying. He said he didn’t want to lose me. He said he was just ‘joking’ with the text messages. He didn’t really mean it. Look at all of the poems he wrote for me. He loves me.
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I might be out of place
But woman to woman
Lets be honest..
The poems will only last so long.
Trust me I have a box full of them.
After you get over the shock of tears falling from his face
You will realize they’re only as real as his promises.
Why do I even feel the need to reach out to you?
You have seen first hand him treating someone else the same way.
The secret letters, comments, and texts.
I mean, after all- you were the one receiving them.
But despite all the pain and anger this has caused me.
You should know..
There is life after him.
I hate you
For giving me hope that we could make my mothers fairytale lifestyle come true
I hate you
For betraying me for so many years.
I hate you
For saying ‘I love you’ too late.
I hate you
Because when I lost you, I also lost your/my family.
I loved you.
I hate you
For choosing her so many times.
I hate you
For making memories with me.
I hate you
For never going away.
I hate you
Because I was never enough
I loved you.
I hate
That you weren’t my first true love
I hate
That you weren’t my first sexually
I hate
that they took all of this away from us.
I love you. I love you. I love you.
Can we fall apart now?
I hope we fall…just like we fell..
If only it would happen that quickly
It’s getting easier
My heart didn’t race when I received your text
With every word I read about ‘them’
A little part of me drifts further away
Another piece of my heart goes to her
Soon she’ll have it all.
It’s almost been a year since we met
I can remember it so vividly
It’s as if I’m looking down on us
You walked through the kitchen door
I was standing by the sink
My eyes followed your every move
I envied you.
You were fighting with her that night
But back then she was just a name
There were no feelings of hatred when she was mentioned
You think by now you would have moved on
You’re so intelligent
But when it comes to her
It’s as if your plan fails every time.
Trust me; I know how hard it can be
Trying to fight that feeling…
When her fingertips softly touch your leg
Holding hands while making your way through a crowded room
Sitting at the beach lit only by the moon
I hope this time is different
I hope you realize who she really is
Because you’re worth so much more…
The truth is…
If you said goodbye, it would break me
The truth is…
I feel so much like him right now, that it makes me sick
I guess now I understand a feeling I never thought I would
The truth is…
I’m too far in to get out now.
I don’t know how you did it to her
I hope you’ll be my only regret when I die.
The truth is…
We’ll never know what could have been
We’ll always look back and wonder
I hate playing you hollow
but at the same time.. I love it.
If you were this sincere 2 months ago…
This wouldn’t be happening.
But you weren’t, so I made a choice.
If she wasn’t here, I’d be yours.
If she wasn’t here, we’d be together
If she wasn’t here, you’d still be playing games
Nothing can prepare us for 14 days.
What will happen when we first set eyes on each other?
I hope my heart beats the same rhythm
That way, I’ll know I’m making the right choice.
That way, all of these questions will be answered.
That way, I won’t always live in regret.
Little things can make a difference
Like whispers.. but that will forever be a secret.
I am not leaving you with hurtful words.
We will look back on ‘us’ and smile
Just like you wanted.
I’ll make sure of it.
I love the idea of liking you forever.
But it hurts… to remind myself… that I’ll never be able to replace liking with loving.
It’s probably best if we don’t.
But I know
When all I feel your touch.
And all I see your smile.
I’ll forget
The pain I will soon feel in the morning.
When I lean over to kiss your body.
And realize that you’re still not mine.
The tears falling from her face
Are because of me.
We talked about this day
And the possible reasons
This was never one of them
I never thought it would be me.
‘Just say its over and we’ll be done’
I couldn’t say it
I don’t think you can either