Almost Lover- A Fine Frenzy

I would have told her to stop
if she made the move, she never made

but not right away, I would have let our lips touch just long enough
for it to be called anything but a decent kiss

and when she would ask why
in a seductive –I don’t want to stop- kind of way
I would have told her…
it’s just another memory to think of
on the lonely highways back home
and we’ve made enough of those
so lets leave well enough alone..

I’m tired of your fake lines

I dont need to know how good my skin feels against yours

I’m tired of your new outlook on life

It’s beyond hypocritical

Your eyes seemed so cold and empty as you spoke of my faults.

But your words didnt hurt as much as the look in your eye

You banned me from leaving my scent on your sheets

So i left my tears on your pillow

and with memories i’d rather forget…

Dangerous- Joshua James

Glimpses into our late night fantasies

Only makes our desires stronger

We’re both ready

For another chance

Another long night

Filled with back arching moans

Alcohol will play a part

No broken hearts

No feelings

Lets leave this in the bedroom.

Too many people will get hurt by our actions

Neither of us wants that

Hopefully we’ll be able to stop at one night

One time only

But for some reason- I’ll bet against it.

….

Good morning my dear

Lets hurry and get dressed

Before questions arise

Lets make the bed

As if love was never made

Lets hide the liquor bottles

Erase all the evidence

It’s a new day

We’ll never speak of this night again

Only our eyes will talk

As we say goodbye yet again

I Hate You

I hate you

For giving me hope that we could make my mothers fairytale lifestyle come true

I hate you

For betraying me for so many years.

I hate you

For saying ‘I love you’ too late.

I hate you

Because when I lost you, I also lost your/my family.

I loved you.

 

I hate you

For choosing her so many times.

I hate you

For making memories with me.

I hate you

For never going away.

I hate you

Because I was never enough

I loved you.

 

I hate

That you weren’t my first true love

I hate

That you weren’t my first sexually

I hate

that they took all of this away from us.

I love you. I love you. I love you.

Out From Under- Britney Spears

Can we fall apart now?

I hope we fall…just like we fell..

If only it would happen that quickly

 

It’s getting easier

My heart didn’t race when I received your text

With every word I read about ‘them’

A little part of me drifts further away

Another piece of my heart goes to her

Soon she’ll have it all.

 

It’s almost been a year since we met

I can remember it so vividly

It’s as if I’m looking down on us

You walked through the kitchen door

I was standing by the sink

My eyes followed your every move

I envied you.

 

You were fighting with her that night

But back then she was just a name

There were no feelings of hatred when she was mentioned

You think by now you would have moved on

You’re so intelligent

But when it comes to her

It’s as if your plan fails every time.

 

Trust me; I know how hard it can be

Trying to fight that feeling…

When her fingertips softly touch your leg

Holding hands while making your way through a crowded room

Sitting at the beach lit only by the moon

 

I hope this time is different

I hope you realize who she really is

Because you’re worth so much more…

If You Would Come Back Home- William Fitzsimmons

If I came back home

I wouldn’t want to start all over

Let’s just pick up where we left off

Because it was perfect

 

You don’t have to buy me coffee

But we could go watch her play again

I’m sure I’ll sit there and text like before

Even though you thought I was texting her

I was really texting myself the lyrics that reminded me of us.

 

I’m coming home

I’ll be glad to mend the pieces.

There’s room between my heart.

Those pictures can stop fading.

The Spill Canvas- Connect The Dots

I love the idea of liking you forever.

But it hurts… to remind myself… that I’ll never be able to replace liking with loving.

It’s probably best if we don’t.

But I know

When all I feel your touch.

And all I see your smile.

I’ll forget

The pain I will soon feel in the morning.

When I lean over to kiss your body.

And realize that you’re still not mine.

Timing

Timing is everything

If it were weeks earlier- things would be different

I would have believed your words

But something inside wont let me now

I can’t go back to this

I’ll just get hurt again

I’ll let the memories fade

I will soon forget you

I wanted all of you

And I couldn’t have it

I was falling too fast

For someone who didn’t feel the same

So I let you go

You chose her

A choice I’ll have to live with

I want to believe your words so badly

I want to fall again

I blame my heart

It’s been here before

It can’t take much more of this.

7.1.08

I walked into the house..
Went up the stairs.
Opened the door- to where this all began.
I just stood there.
My heart sank.
I wanted to run.

I wish i could turn around
and have you standing here..

We could pretend this didn’t happen.
Just for one more night.
I want to make you smile again.
I want to follow you up the stairs…
and lay you into bed.
I want to kiss you.
I want to touch you.
and most of all, i want to wake up next to you.

When morning comes we can go back to hating each other.
We can go back to playing games.

I’ll continue liking you..
And you can continue liking her..